Sunday, March 25, 2007

American Movie, Sobriety, and Scripts

I watched American Movie. Wow, what a great film. It's definitely now my favorite documentary. Not only was it extremely entertaining, but I could really relate to it. Well first off, it's about a filmmaker, Mark, who's trying to make films for a living, or at least he wants to. He's broke, he's has bills up to his waist, and he just wants to live "the american dream" -to be able to do what he loves (filmmaking) for a living. At one point, he talks about how he can't understand how people take these factory jobs, or in other words "normal" jobs when they're ultimately not taking them anywhere.
"There's no passion in a factory job...screwing bolts into some piece of metal on an assembly line"-or something close to that. While this isn't entirely true, not everyone has a passion for film or the arts. They just want to make a living and find their happiness and passion in something else.
But Mark can't do anything but make films. Its what he's destined to do. That's where I could really relate. I can't see myself doing a desk job or anything like that. I can't just ignore this passion I have for cinema. I mean if it means getting a "normal" job to help me get closer to my goal of making films for a living than that's different. And don't get me wrong, I have nothing against desk-jobs. In fact, I think I'd be good at doing something like marketing, but thats just not where my heart's at.
Watching this film also reinforced my commitment to stay sober all throughtout my life (as well as drug-free, but that's always been set in stone). Mark just spends so much money and time with alcohol. I think that's a big part of why he's in such a bad situation with his money, and family problems. I said I would never drink in honor of my dad staying sober for 25 years and I still keep my word.
I'm not anti-alcohol...I think if its used in moderation its fine, but most of the time, its abused. I just can't accept the idea of giving my body over to a drug (and yes, alcohol is a drug when its abused). Not knowing what I did or said the night before and waking up sick just doesn't seem worth it.


I need to start a script. I mentioned this in my first post, and I still haven't started. I need to just lock myself up somewhere for an hour with a notebook and pen. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

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